Life is hard.
We have ups. We have downs.
How do you deal with all of this?
I have been out of town the last 2 weekends and hadn't made it to church. However, today, I finally made it back, and wow was I reminded of why I love going. My faith is a huge part of my life, and I needed today's message more than I knew.
The last 6 months have really tested me greatly. I have dealt with heartache, confusion, and disappointment. I have been on a roller coaster of emotions. Its. Been. Hard.
Over the last few weeks, my church has been talking about the story of Moses. Well, today, it was how that story ends. His story also ends with heartache, disappointment. Just like Moses, we all face this, but how do we handle it? You picture your Promiseland, and then you get let down. Do you hold it in? Do you let it out? Many times we hold it all in, and that's when the struggle begins.
I have done a little of both. I express how I feel, but I also hold it in. I feel like people don't want to hear about my pain, so I often sugar coat it. Ever do this? However, today in church, I realized that my disappointments are rooted deep within my soul and can become destructive if I don't face them. I have to pull those disappointments out and face them. I have finally realized, through many tears, it is time to pull them out, front and center. It is OKAY. All will be fine. I am allowed to be disappointed, but I must give it to God. He may be silent right now, and I may not understand, but He is working.
Trust, my friends, Trust.